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20 January 2007, Who I am.
I stated this versus "Who am I?" I got to thinking about this after visiting Claire's site at A little piece of me. Claire is working on her schooling to become a counselor. Part of her class assignments this term is looking at herself. I thought about this yesterday. Why, because as I stood next to the man that had tried to kill me earlier in the week, I realized, I really didn't have any hatred or anger towards him. Should I? On one side, heck yeah! During previous wars, you fought soldiers, men who were taking orders. This isn't the case today. Suicide bombers volunteer for these missions. What motivated this man to want to kill himself and take out as many Americans as he could with him? For this reason alone, I should hate him, a small part wants to, and wants to help grant his wish of meeting his maker. But the larger part of me, the part that is me, actually feels pity for the man. He appeared to be around 60, for an Afghan this is old, for the life expectancy of the average Afghan male is around 47. He appeared to be uneducated, a farmer perhaps. For half of his life, he has seen war in his country, besides any family he might have had, I'm sure he has seen little happiness and joy in his country. Now, he is a captured enemy combatant, no joy there.
So I continued thinking after I went to bed last night. I realized that most of my life, I have considered different paths that all lead to helping others. Hence, the reason I'm a police officer and a soldier. I see so many people who get out of these lines of work because they are fed up with the red tape and bureaucracies. It is usually the people who have the capabilities and abilities to actually solve the problems that leave. I look at each job with the attitude of "what can I do to make it better?" This is probably one of the reasons I want to run for state office someday. I've actually wanted that since I was 19. (remember, procrastination). This mentality of mine is also why I was upset a few days ago. I'm trying to make things better for those working with us.
Do you know who you are? Have you looked inside yourself and figured out what it is you are here to do? What's next for you? What's next for me? dinner.
Be sure and check out my other post today below. Be safe and have a good day.